I’ll admit it, I’m a little disappointed in myself.
I was hoping to be done by now, but when I finished working on The Weighty Tome yesterday, I was on page 376 of what is now just 400 manuscript pages. So close! But I had put probably close to four hours in over the course of the day (it occurs to me I might want to log my hours on these projects, because why not?), and when last night’s Bruins game was over, I couldn’t go back to it, even though there were still a couple of hours left in the day. I just didn’t have anything left in the tank, and I’ve learned not to force it when that’s the case.
It’s funny how you get to a point in the day when you’re just done, isn’t it? When I’m running hot on writing, I can interrupt myself to go to the bathroom or get something to eat, but rarely does that interruption really break my flow. I can come back a few minutes later and get back into it pretty easily. But when I’m done, I’m done, and walking away for a few hours doesn’t do the trick. There’s just nothing there until the next day.
So, I sit on the cusp of ‘finishing’ this manuscript again (though I know I have to go back to a point somewhere in the middle and add a tiny bit), but am just not quite there. And November is half over which means it’s really WAY to late, because I’m getting to a point where I would have to average over 2500 words a day to ‘win’, and that’s too much. And that’s also okay. As much as it would be nice to join the NaNo masses, everything has its own time and the next project will come about on the schedule it needs.
Disappointed? A little. But I also know enough to listen to myself.
How about you? Can you push through those moments when you’re ‘done’, and how does that work for you?
One note: the Bruins had a good weekend, winning both games after turning in a horrible performance against Vancouver. The fans are very skittish this year, which I think is a product of the team being unexpectedly good last year. Funny how that happens.
Second note: I really screwed myself by posting that “McCafferty’s Bib” song by They Might Be Giants last week. I can’t get it out of my head! I think it’s because I can’t get the melody and lyrics to match up quite right, no matter how many times I listen to it. Help!
Third note: Yesterday was Veterans Day here in the US, so let me take this moment to express my gratitude and appreciation to all our veterans. Thank you for what you do.